I don’t know what I expected
But I didn’t expect the verdict to be so… terminal
The odds are totally against you. You are one in a million that can beat out this mental illness.
You’ll drop out of college. Lead a despondent life. Have broken relationships. You’re likely to become suicidal and attempt suicide. You don’t have a chance.
So I suggest you take this pill.
….Will it help?
It might. We’ll just try it and see. If it doesn’t we’ll try another one.
What about the sideeffects?
… I blacked out and woke up in tears.
…. I couldn’t sleep.
…. I got dizzy and fainted at my friend’s wedding and then started throwing up.
I couldn’t eat for three days.
My Samoan father- “papa” asked me the size of my waistline 26 inches. I said yes. He gave me a second helping of ulu and palusami.
I was weeping. I was shaking. I ran out of the dorm room at 4:30 am and called the suicide hotline.
I knew if I hadn’t run out I would have killed myself.