I woke up in tears again

Well I say again but honestly

Out of the 412 days of nightmares

I’ve only cried 4 times

It was his name. My best friend who forgot me.

First was the violence. The rape. That was first. Then came abandonment. Darkness. Loss of all hope.

The physical reactions to the abuse beyond my control that jarred me to wakefulness as sensations assaulted my sleeping body

Horror so complete that all was silence except for the screaming in my mind to leave me alone get off what the hell is happening

And then I’m awake. Alone. In the dark. Tears shining in my eyes in the starlight. Waiting for the sunrise.

Quietly broken

What happened to metears

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