RULES OF THE AWARD:
· Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog
· Write a post to show your award
· Give a brief story of how your blog started
· Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers
· Select 15 other bloggers you want to give this award to
· Comment on each blog and let them know you have nominated them and provide the link to the post you created
First off I want to thank Chicken Risotto Blog for nominating me for recognition. As I just barely started my blog I really didn’t expect anyone to care and I appreciate that she nominated me very much. ❤ Also want you to know your blog is my favorite online and I love to read everything you have.
I started this blog for a few reasons. I’ve had mental, emotional, and physical health issues since August 2015 but before that I was pretty normal. Very happy person. Popular. Good grades. Athletic. All-around star. I used to read books with covers that said that the girl was anorexic or had been sexually abused and put them back because my father would disapprove of my exposure to that “darkness”. It was like seeing them through a store display window, beautiful girls in shadows cut and bleeding or starving away to nothing, victims to an illness that people refuse to name or treat. But then… Just with the events of one night my entire life changed. And as I tried to get help but was rebuffed by ignorant people who didn’t understand mental illness and that I couldn’t just “decide” to be happy and “get over” the sexual abuse, I realized I needed a voice. I didn’t start a blog until a year after my issues started and when I did it all I wanted was somewhere to create, to try to express the horrors and difficulties and happiness, all the living someone like me has. I knew I had become one of those models behind the glass walls and if that was my fate then I needed to make sure the display was worth watching.
I wanted to be heard and I did it in the hope that if anyone else is struggling like me, that they’ll get help, or even that just for a minute they can read my thoughts and realize that they aren’t alone. That even the popular pretty perfect girl with all the friends can truly be terminally sick. That people do carry scars deeper than the eyes can see and it’s okay to honor those injuries. I honestly just wanted to take my experiences with mental illness and try to make a silver lining out of it so even if I don’t make it, my records will show exactly what it was like. Maybe someday the doctors will stop guessing and chasing in circles and sit down and find a cure.
Advice I would give to new bloggers:
- Use spellcheck. If you are going to post your deepest thoughts and emotions into this world for anyone else to see, make sure it is clothed beautifully. Ever heard the expression “language is the dress of thought” well make dang sure it’s a Queen you put out there and not pre-kiss frog prince kk.
- Say whatever you want. Don’t go for numbers or stats. Be true to yourself so even if no one reads your posts at the end of the day at least you can look at them and say I was honest with myself. Torturing yourself to try to please others doesn’t end well we know this.
I don’t follow too many blogs yet but I nominate: