Happy New Year!

I got 2017 runnin’ scared guys it is almost 2018.


I never really understood the significance people put on January 1st like yes, it is the number 1, we like the firsts of our life and what not but in my eyes progression is everyday. It’a not a magical day that changes what you already have people, it is just another day. But for once you are actually thinking of doing something different with that day.
What I did in 2017 well…
I went to treatment for my PTSD anorexia and depression for 4 months. Which conditions I had already, but I was sexually molested by a complete stranger 2 weeks before I left Hawaii to go. I spent my last two weeks before treatment dryheaving into the toilet and cutting.
I came back to school in Hawaii despite rumors and vicious gossip which continues which marks over 10 months since the initial event
I survived treatment and found a medication that helps me day to day
I came back to Hawaii still struggling but I got through it
I moved 7 times total this year, my final move of 2k17 was today
I had a solo for my Polynesian Dance Class recital and my boyz came to support me
I managed a visit home which is where the rape happened and I lost my dog and my best friend and an uncle in 2016 😦
I worked hard on my injured leg which is a legacy of my initial tibial stress fracture of 2016
Basically 2016 kicked my ass and in 2017 I kicked back. Not hard enough but I take my punches where I can get ’em
I did therapy and school and I spent about 20 hours on the bus a week to go to said appointments and
I WAS ON TIME TO EVERY ONE OF THEM.
I KNOW. QUEEN OF 2017 I AM THE BAWSE.
I wore my tiara to school many times
I got all the new students to call me my nickname Queen
I passed all my classes
I worked out 3-5 days a week
My weight AHEM *cough cough* Kay so yo girl did not do as well in that area this year but we did not fall out of a healthy range so there’s the silver lining there.
I met my awesome bossass therapist and she is the best one so far
My PTSD nightmares started to ease up this year thank God it’s been over a thousand days and nights of reliving the worst traumas of my past
Oh I got all the boys this year. I am j’single but I got my guyfriends and they are really good for me and we had some great times
I got better at dancing hahhahaa
I got some new members to my family cause my siblings decided to create little humans. Strange but true.
I got to do some good running between injuries this year ^_^
I bought more Bollywood music
I spent time with a lot of good people and I said Kay bye to some bitches who were holding me back from the good life
Namely I kicked out some people whose face didn’t match their actions
I HANDLED SOME MAJOR GIRL DRAMA MMHMM AND I CAME OUT ON TOP WITH NO PIERCINGS RIPPED OUT
I dressed up as Moana and danced in costume in public
I probably had the best blogging this year for me. As I said 2016 kicked my butt.
I learned how to throw better punches mmm love it
I learned that my favorite gun is a Sig Sauer
AND MY BIGGEST NEWS I AM APPLYING FOR A PTSD SERVICE DOG I CANNOT OVERSTATE HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS TO ME AND MY RECOVERY SO 2018 IF YOU GONNA BRING ME ANYTHING REFUND THE RICH HOT BOYFRIEND AND GIVE ME A DOG ^_^ ❤ ❤ <3mwah boys I love you but between you and a puppy you lost before you was born.
Happy New Year!

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